Notes

Seems like what's mostly being posted these days are notes from me, with the occassional serious download note from the Lord.

I've been studying, but I"m not posting. I will share what God is showing me for today, for instance.

I am currently ministering to a single Mom that had to flee her home with her 11 year old daughter. Not many of you know, that last May I had the same experience. When someone threatens your life, your whole world changes. You're trapped. But what's worse, is you're trapped in your own home. Everything normal suddenly becomes abnormal. This person will have before now been showing red flags, but until they threaten to hurt you, you just begin to pull away, one day them not even knowing who you are. But the day they threaten your life, your safety, your whole world turns ON YOU! You dont feel safe in anything you do.

Fear is the main engine the enemy uses here, of course. His plan is for you to open up to fear. With a threat on your life, or your childs life, you pretty much open up and let fear come in to reside. Once you leave your home, fear is with you wherever you go. You dont think straight, act straight, you even have dreams that aren't straight. Once you open up to fear, it pretty much has the wheel on driving you to make decisions you would not have made before.

To insure me that He was near, God gave me a scripture that was somewhat odd to the 'normal' environed person, but went straight to my heart. The day I left began a path of guilt and shame. Guilt and shame have no part in a normal environment, but when your world is opened to fear, guilt that you ran too soon, or wasn't strong enough to tough it out begin to bombard you. Yes, a person that is codependent will indeed have a hard decision here. They are not always drawn to the abuser, they are sometimes guilted to go back. Shame is a natural feature in this too. Once the initial fear is subsided you move toward thoughts of 'why did this happen'. You have thoughts like 'I just cant have a good relationship' and 'everyone is going to know now' and 'I cant tell them I've had to leave'. All this is normal behavior for someone that's been threatened. However, typically someone that's being threatened has lived a life of verbal abuse, controlling behavior from the partner and they have had to endure hardship emotionally for quite sometime before the threats begin.

The scripture God gave me that broke the hold of all guilt and shameful thoughts was Matthew 6:25 when Jesus said 'is not THE LIFE more important than meat and the body more than raiment?'. What the Lord was telling me is my life is more important than my clothes I left behind, my pictures I left behind, even my puppies I left behind. THE LIFE and saving it from harm is more important than what I left behind.

If there is someone you come in contact with that has had to flee their home to make a new home somewhere else, please show them kindness. Let them know you really really do care about them. Give of yourself and your stuff. Show them the love ..... of Christ~